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<\/p>\nThe alarm went off at 5:00 a.m.<\/p>\n
And for once in my life, I didn\u2019t hit snooze.<\/p>\n
I reached over and turned it off before it could beep a second time. Daniel was asleep beside me, flat on his back, one arm thrown over his eyes, snoring softly. He didn\u2019t move.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I slipped out of bed. I pulled on yesterday\u2019s sweatshirt from the chair in the corner. Gray, with a coffee stain on the cuff. I tiptoed across the old wooden floor, avoiding the board by the door that creaks, and I crept downstairs.<\/p>\n
The house was still dark.<\/p>\n
Outside the big kitchen window, the lake was a flat sheet of black glass. No wind. No birds yet. The only sound was the old refrigerator humming in the corner of my mother\u2019s kitchen.<\/p>\n
My mother\u2019s kitchen.<\/p>\n
That mattered to me a lot more that morning than it had a week before.<\/p>\n
My mom has a little place by the lake.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s not fancy. It\u2019s a two-story cedar cabin with a green metal roof and a screened porch and a wooden deck that looks out over the water. It has three bedrooms upstairs and one bathroom that everybody fights over. The kitchen still has the orange countertops from 1978. The couch in the living room is older than I am.<\/p>\n
My dad bought it the year I was born. He paid for it with money he saved from twenty years of working overtime at the paper mill. He used to say it was the only thing he ever bought that was worth more than he paid for it.<\/p>\n
He died when I was nineteen. A heart attack. On the dock, actually. Fishing for bass.<\/p>\n
Mom almost sold the cabin after that. She couldn\u2019t stand to be there. For two summers, she didn\u2019t even go up. Then one day in June, she called me and said, \u201cI think I\u2019m going to go open up the lake house.\u201d And she did. And she\u2019s gone every summer since.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s hers now. Completely hers. She pays the taxes. She fixes the roof. She planted every single flower around it. She painted the shutters blue two summers ago, by herself, on a ladder, which I yelled at her about for a week.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father would have painted them blue,\u201d she said. \u201cHe always wanted blue.\u201d<\/p>\n
Daniel and I got married in the spring. In May. In a little church in my hometown, and then a reception at a barn with string lights and a taco truck.<\/p>\n
This was the first summer our families spent together.<\/p>\n
The first time Daniel\u2019s parents, Susan and Richard, came up to the lake, my mother was nervous for a whole week before. I\u2019ve never seen her so nervous. Not even at my wedding.<\/p>\n
She called me every single night that week.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do they like to eat, honey?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMom, they eat normal food.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDoes Susan drink coffee or tea?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCoffee. I think. I don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo they have any allergies?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think so.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat kind of pillows does Richard like? Firm or soft?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMom. I have no idea what kind of pillows my father-in-law likes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She drove to the city and bought brand-new sheets for the guest room. Four-hundred-thread-count. Pale blue. She bought new towels. Fluffy white ones. She bought a little basket for the bathroom with tiny soaps and tiny lotions and a candle, like at a hotel.<\/p>\n
She scrubbed the whole cabin from top to bottom. She washed the windows. She had the carpets cleaned.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom,\u201d I said, when I came up the Friday before, and found her on her hands and knees scrubbing the baseboards with a toothbrush. \u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want everything to be nice.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s always nice. It\u2019s a lake cabin. People expect it to be a little messy.\u201d<\/p>\n
She sat back on her heels. She had a smear of cleaning spray on her cheek.<\/p>\n
\u201cThey\u2019re family now, honey,\u201d she said. \u201cYou married Daniel. That means we\u2019re all married to each other now. In a way. I want them to feel welcome.\u201d<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t know what to say to that. So I got down on the floor and helped her scrub the baseboards.<\/p>\n
The weather held all summer. Warm and sunny, week after week. So we\u2019d been going up to the lake almost every weekend since the middle of June.<\/p>\n
Daniel and me. Susan and Richard. And Mom.<\/p>\n
And every single weekend looked exactly the same.<\/p>\n
My mom got up at six.<\/p>\n
Every morning. Before anybody else. I\u2019d hear her moving around downstairs. The coffee maker gurgling. The frying pan on the stove. The radio playing low. She always listens to the old country station in the morning.<\/p>\n
She made breakfast for six people. Five of us, plus she always made extra. Bacon and eggs and pancakes. Or French toast. Or her famous blueberry muffins, from scratch, with the crumbly sugar on top.<\/p>\n
Then she cleaned it all up. Every plate. Every pan. Every fork.<\/p>\n
Then she stripped the beds and washed the towels and hung them on the line out back.<\/p>\n
Then she drove forty minutes round trip to the big grocery store in town. Because the little store by the lake didn\u2019t carry the right mayonnaise.<\/p>\n
Susan didn\u2019t eat regular mayonnaise.<\/p>\n
She only ate the kind made with avocado oil. In the glass jar. Eleven dollars a jar. Mom found that out the first weekend, when Susan took one bite of her chicken salad sandwich and put it down and said, \u201cOh. Is this regular mayo?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mom drove to town the next morning and bought three jars.<\/p>\n
Then she came back and made lunch.<\/p>\n
Then she cleaned up lunch.<\/p>\n
Then she cooked dinner. Always something nice. Grilled salmon. Pot roast. Chicken piccata. Homemade pasta. She made a peach cobbler every Saturday night because Richard mentioned once that he liked peach cobbler.<\/p>\n
Then she cleaned up dinner.<\/p>\n
Then she went to bed around ten. And got up at six and did it all over again.<\/p>\n
And Susan?<\/p>\n
Susan arrived on Friday evening. She walked through the cabin. She said, \u201cOh, this is so cute,\u201d every single time, like she\u2019d never seen it before.<\/p>\n
Then she walked out onto the deck. She got into the big lounger with the striped cushion. The one right in the middle of the deck with the best view of the water. She put her sunglasses on. She had her iced tea in one hand and her phone in the other.<\/p>\n
And that was it.<\/p>\n
That was her weekend.<\/p>\n
All summer, she never once asked if she could help.<\/p>\n
Not once.<\/p>\n
Not in eight weekends.<\/p>\n
She never carried a single plate to the sink. She never chopped an onion. She never wiped a counter. She never folded a towel.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t even bring her own coffee cup inside. She\u2019d leave it on the little side table next to the lounger. Every morning. And by noon there\u2019d be a ring on the wood, and my mom would come out and pick it up and wipe the ring off with a dish towel.<\/p>\n
Susan would say, \u201cOh, thanks, Maggie,\u201d without looking up from her phone.<\/p>\n
And at some point, somewhere in July, she stopped saying even that.<\/p>\n
She stopped saying thank you.<\/p>\n
That was the part that actually got me. More than the coffee cups. More than the mayonnaise.<\/p>\n
My mother would set a plate of food in front of her, a plate she\u2019d spent two hours cooking, and Susan would just start eating. Looking at her phone. Not a word. Like the food had appeared out of thin air.<\/p>\n
I talked to Daniel about it once. In July. In bed, with the lights off, whispering so nobody would hear through the thin cabin walls.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour mom never helps,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe never even says thank you anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d He was quiet for a moment. \u201cShe\u2019s always been like that, babe. At home, my dad does everything. She plans stuff. She decides stuff. But she doesn\u2019t do stuff.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut this isn\u2019t her home. This is my mom\u2019s home.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShould I say something?\u201d<\/p>\n
He was quiet for a long time.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know,\u201d he said honestly. \u201cI don\u2019t know what that would do.\u201d<\/p>\n
We didn\u2019t talk about it again. Not for a few weeks.<\/p>\n
But it was the flower boxes that finally pushed me over the edge.<\/p>\n
The Saturday before, my mother had put new geraniums along the deck railing.<\/p>\n
Six wooden flower boxes. She\u2019d built them herself, in the spring, in the garage at home. Painted them the same blue as the shutters. And she\u2019d filled every one of them with bright red geraniums.<\/p>\n
She\u2019d been looking forward to it for weeks. She told me all about it in the car on the way up. She showed me pictures on her phone. Pictures of the flowers at the garden center. Pictures of the boxes in her garage, drying after she painted them. Pictures of the little bags of potting soil.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father always said red geraniums looked cheerful,\u201d she said. \u201cHe used to say they looked like they were having a party.\u201d<\/p>\n
She showed me those pictures like she\u2019d planted a prize-winning garden. Instead of six little boxes of red flowers.<\/p>\n
She got up at five-thirty that Saturday morning to put them out. Before breakfast. So they\u2019d be there when everybody came downstairs.<\/p>\n
I came out on the deck with my coffee and saw them. All six blue boxes. Lined up along the deck railing. Full of bright red flowers. With the blue lake behind them.<\/p>\n
It looked like a postcard.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom,\u201d I said. \u201cThey\u2019re beautiful.\u201d<\/p>\n
She beamed.<\/p>\n
Then Susan came out.<\/p>\n
She was wearing a white linen cover-up and big sunglasses. She had her iced tea. She walked to the lounger. The big one in the middle, with the striped cushion.<\/p>\n
The cushion my mother had put out for her that morning. Fluffed up. Brushed off.<\/p>\n
Susan sat down. She stretched out her legs. She looked out at the water.<\/p>\n
And then she saw the flowers.<\/p>\n
She frowned. She lowered her sunglasses.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh,\u201d she said. \u201cNo. No, these are all wrong here.\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother was standing in the doorway with a tray of blueberry muffins. She stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m lying right here,\u201d Susan said. She waved her hand at the flower boxes. \u201cAnd they\u2019re blocking my whole view of the water. I can\u2019t see anything. Don\u2019t do that again.\u201d<\/p>\n
Don\u2019t do that again.<\/p>\n
In my mother\u2019s house.<\/p>\n
About my mother\u2019s flowers.<\/p>\n
From the lounger my mother had put a fresh cushion on that morning.<\/p>\n
I was standing there with my coffee cup. I couldn\u2019t move.<\/p>\n
And my mother said, \u201cOh. I didn\u2019t think of that. I\u2019m sorry, Susan.\u201d<\/p>\n
And she put down the tray of muffins.<\/p>\n
And she started moving them.<\/p>\n
She moved her own flowers.<\/p>\n
One box at a time. Carrying them from the railing in front of the lounger to the far corner of the deck. Where nobody could see them. Behind the grill. Next to the trash cans.<\/p>\n
While Susan watched.<\/p>\n
Susan didn\u2019t get up to help. She didn\u2019t say oh, you don\u2019t have to do that right now. She didn\u2019t say never mind, it\u2019s fine, leave them.<\/p>\n
She just sat there in the lounger with her iced tea. Watching my mother carry six heavy wooden boxes full of dirt and flowers across the deck.<\/p>\n
When the last one was moved, Susan put her sunglasses back on.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s so much better,\u201d she said. \u201cThanks, Maggie.\u201d<\/p>\n
It was the first time she\u2019d said thank you in a month.<\/p>\n
I knew my mother.<\/p>\n
She\u2019s soft. She\u2019s always been soft. She\u2019s the kind of woman who apologizes to a chair when she bumps into it. She\u2019ll swallow anything to keep the peace. Anything.<\/p>\n
Especially for me.<\/p>\n
She would have moved those flowers a hundred times. She would have driven to town for the eleven-dollar mayonnaise a hundred times. She would have picked up a thousand coffee cups off that side table. And she\u2019d never say a single word.<\/p>\n
Because she didn\u2019t want to cause trouble. For me. For my new marriage. For my new family.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s exactly why I wasn\u2019t going to swallow it.<\/p>\n
But I also knew that shouting wouldn\u2019t do anything.<\/p>\n
If I\u2019d marched out on that deck and yelled at Susan, she would have gone home and told everybody. Her sister. Her friends at church. Her book club. Daniel\u2019s new wife attacked me. Out of nowhere. At her mother\u2019s lake house. I didn\u2019t do anything.<\/p>\n
And I didn\u2019t want to spend the next thirty Christmases sitting across the table from a woman who thought I despised her. A woman who\u2019d be at every birthday party for my future children. Every graduation. Every holiday. For the rest of my life.<\/p>\n
So I didn\u2019t say a word that Saturday.<\/p>\n
Not at breakfast. Not at lunch. Not at dinner.<\/p>\n
I watched my mother serve dinner to a woman who\u2019d made her move her own flowers. I watched my mother clean up after her. I watched my mother go to bed at ten o\u2019clock, exhausted.<\/p>\n
And then I went upstairs and set my alarm for five in the morning.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d Daniel asked. He was lying in bed, watching me set the alarm on my phone.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m getting up early tomorrow.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m going to fix something.\u201d<\/p>\n
He propped himself up on one elbow.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs this about the flowers?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s about the whole summer,\u201d I said. \u201cThe flowers were just the last straw.\u201d<\/p>\n
He was quiet for a long moment.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you going to do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not sure yet,\u201d I said. \u201cBut I\u2019m done watching my mom work herself into the ground every weekend while your mother lies on a lounger. I\u2019m just done, Daniel.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you going to be mad at me?\u201d<\/p>\n
He thought about it. For a long time.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d he said finally. \u201cI\u2019m not going to be mad at you.\u201d<\/p>\n
He lay back down.<\/p>\n
\u201cHonestly,\u201d he said to the ceiling, \u201cI should have done something myself. A long time ago.\u201d<\/p>\n
At 5:07 a.m., I found it.<\/p>\n
An old dry-erase board. About two feet by three feet. Mom kept it leaning against the wall next to the pantry. When I was a kid, she used to write the grocery list on it. And the weather forecast. And little messages. Good luck on your swim test! Dad caught a big one!<\/p>\n
It had been sitting there, blank, for years.<\/p>\n
I carried it to the big wooden kitchen table. I propped it up against the fruit bowl, so anybody coming into the kitchen would see it first thing.<\/p>\n
I found a black marker in the junk drawer. I tested it on my hand. It worked.<\/p>\n
And at the top of the board, in big capital letters, I wrote:<\/p>\n
WEEKEND JOBS<\/p>\n
Then I divided up the work.<\/p>\n
Daniel: breakfast cleanup.<\/p>\n
Richard: grocery run.<\/p>\n
Me: lunch.<\/p>\n
Susan: breakfast.<\/p>\n
Then I made a little chart for dinner. So it would rotate. Saturday night, Sunday night. Different people each night. I put Susan\u2019s name next to Saturday.<\/p>\n
Then, at the very bottom of the board, next to my mother\u2019s name, I wrote:<\/p>\n
Mom: enjoy your house.<\/p>\n
I underlined your. Twice.<\/p>\n
I was standing there looking at it. At my handwriting. Wondering if I\u2019d gone too far. Wondering if I should erase the whole thing and go back to bed.<\/p>\n
And then I heard slippers.<\/p>\n
Behind me. On the wooden floor.<\/p>\n
My mom was standing in the kitchen doorway.<\/p>\n
She was wearing her old pink robe. The fuzzy one with the belt that\u2019s been missing since 2011. Her gray hair was sticking up on one side. She had her reading glasses pushed up on top of her head.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d she asked. \u201cIt\u2019s five o\u2019clock in the morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFixing something,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
She walked over to the kitchen table. She pulled her reading glasses down onto her nose. She read the board.<\/p>\n
I watched her face change before she even got to the second line.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, honey. Take that down. Right now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s your house, Mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey\u2019re guests.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey\u2019ve been guests here almost every single weekend for two months.\u201d<\/p>\n
She lowered her voice. She glanced up at the ceiling. At the guest room right above us. Like Susan might somehow be able to hear us through the floor.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can\u2019t give people chores,\u201d she whispered, \u201cwhen you\u2019ve invited them somewhere. You just can\u2019t. That\u2019s not how it\u2019s done.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause that\u2019s not how you treat guests.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIs telling the woman who owns the house where she\u2019s allowed to put her own flowers,\u201d I said, \u201chow you treat a host?\u201d<\/p>\n
Her mouth went tight.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe didn\u2019t mean anything by it,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou moved them, Mom. You moved all six of them. Behind the trash cans.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt wasn\u2019t a big deal.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen put them back.\u201d<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t answer.<\/p>\n
She looked toward the big kitchen window. Out at the deck. Where six blue flower boxes full of red geraniums were sitting in the corner next to the grill. In the dark.<\/p>\n
I knew that look. I\u2019ve known it my whole life.<\/p>\n
She wasn\u2019t thinking about the flowers. She was thinking about how much discomfort she\u2019d have to deal with if she admitted, out loud, that she wanted them back where she\u2019d put them. How awkward it would be. What Susan would say. What Susan would think. What Susan would tell Daniel. What Daniel would tell me. Whether I\u2019d be in trouble in my new marriage because my mother made a fuss about geraniums.<\/p>\n
She was doing math. The same math she\u2019s done my whole life.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not having you start something with your mother-in-law,\u201d Mom said. \u201cBecause of me. I won\u2019t have it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not starting anything, Mom,\u201d I said. \u201cI\u2019m ending something.\u201d<\/p>\n
She reached past me for the eraser. It was sitting on the little ledge at the bottom of the board.<\/p>\n
I picked up the whole board before she could get it.<\/p>\n
\u201cOne day,\u201d I said. \u201cPlease. Just try one day. One day where everybody takes care of themselves. And you don\u2019t take care of anybody.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I like taking care of people,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know you do,\u201d I said. \u201cBut that\u2019s different from being everybody\u2019s maid.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her face changed.<\/p>\n
Something went across it. Hurt. Like I\u2019d slapped her.<\/p>\n
I knew right away I\u2019d gone too far. I opened my mouth to take it back.<\/p>\n
And then we heard footsteps.<\/p>\n
Upstairs. Directly over our heads. On the old wooden floor of the guest room.<\/p>\n
Somebody was up.<\/p>\n
Mom stared at the board in my hands.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, Lord,\u201d she whispered.<\/p>\n
I put the board back on the kitchen table. Propped against the fruit bowl. Right where it was.<\/p>\n
Mom stood there for a second. Frozen.<\/p>\n
Then she did something I\u2019ve never seen her do. In my whole life.<\/p>\n
She pulled out a chair at the kitchen table. And she sat down.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t go to the coffee maker. She didn\u2019t go to the refrigerator for eggs. She didn\u2019t reach for the frying pan.<\/p>\n
She just sat down. In her fuzzy pink robe. With her hands folded in her lap. Like a guest.<\/p>\n
She looked terrified.<\/p>\n
Susan came downstairs fifteen minutes later.<\/p>\n
She was already dressed for the deck. White linen cover-up. Sandals. Sunglasses pushed up on her head. Her hair was already done.<\/p>\n
She walked straight past us. Straight to the coffee maker.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t say good morning.<\/p>\n
The coffee maker was empty. Cold. The carafe was clean and dry, sitting on the burner.<\/p>\n
There was no coffee.<\/p>\n
Beside me, at the table, my mother made a tiny movement. Her hand came up off her lap. Toward the coffee maker. Automatically.<\/p>\n
I reached over and touched her wrist.<\/p>\n
She stopped.<\/p>\n
Susan opened a cabinet. Then another one. Then a third one. She was looking for something.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs the coffee not on?\u201d she asked. To nobody. To the cabinets.<\/p>\n
\u201cNot yet,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
Susan turned around. She glanced at my mother. Sitting at the table in her robe. Doing nothing.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh,\u201d Susan said.<\/p>\n
She looked confused. Like the coffee maker had broken. Like the sun hadn\u2019t come up. Like something was wrong with the laws of the universe.<\/p>\n
Then she saw the board.<\/p>\n
She read it once.<\/p>\n
Then she read it again.<\/p>\n
She laughed.<\/p>\n
A light little laugh. The kind you laugh when you think something\u2019s a joke.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat\u2019s this?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWeekend jobs,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI can see that,\u201d Susan said. She tilted her head. She read it a third time. \u201cI\u2019m\u2014breakfast?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re breakfast,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
She looked at me like I\u2019d just told her she was going to be reroofing the house.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re serious?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cVery serious.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her smile disappeared.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour mother,\u201d Susan said slowly, \u201cinvited us here.\u201d<\/p>\n
Before I could answer, Daniel came downstairs.<\/p>\n
He was wearing a T-shirt and pajama pants. His hair was a mess. He was yawning.<\/p>\n
He stopped at the bottom of the stairs.<\/p>\n
He looked at the board. He read it.<\/p>\n
Then he looked at me.<\/p>\n
I\u2019d told him the night before that I was done watching my mom work herself sick. But I hadn\u2019t told him exactly what I was going to do. I didn\u2019t know myself until five o\u2019clock that morning.<\/p>\n
He looked at the board again. At his name. Daniel: breakfast cleanup.<\/p>\n
Susan turned to him.<\/p>\n
\u201cApparently,\u201d she said, \u201cI\u2019m making breakfast.\u201d<\/p>\n
She said it like it was the funniest joke she\u2019d ever heard. She said it like she was waiting for him to laugh. To say, Oh, Mom, of course you\u2019re not.<\/p>\n
Daniel hesitated.<\/p>\n
It was only half a second.<\/p>\n
But that half second felt like an hour to me.<\/p>\n
Then he said, \u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan stared at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay?\u201c<\/p>\n
\u201cYeah,\u201d Daniel said. He scratched the back of his neck. \u201cI\u2019ll clean up afterward. It says right there.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan folded her arms across her white linen cover-up.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen people stay at my house,\u201d she said, \u201cI don\u2019t hand them a chore list.\u201d<\/p>\n
Richard had just come down the stairs behind Daniel. He was wearing his fishing hat and a T-shirt that said WORLD\u2019S OKAYEST GOLFER.<\/p>\n
He stopped on the bottom step.<\/p>\n
Daniel looked at his mother.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, Mom,\u201d he said. \u201cYou don\u2019t. Because at our house, Dad does all the grocery shopping. And I usually make breakfast when I\u2019m home. And everybody clears the table after dinner. Everybody. Except you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s head snapped around. Toward Richard.<\/p>\n
Richard was standing there on the bottom step. In his fishing hat. Looking like he wanted to go back upstairs.<\/p>\n
He gave an awkward little shrug.<\/p>\n
\u201cI do usually shop,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not the point, Richard.\u201d<\/p>\n
But it was.<\/p>\n
It was exactly the point.<\/p>\n
Susan always thought of herself as a wonderful hostess. I\u2019d heard her say it. At our engagement party. At Thanksgiving. Oh, I love entertaining. I\u2019m a natural hostess. It\u2019s my gift.<\/p>\n
And it was true, sort of. She planned the dinners. She picked out the flowers for the table. She chose what music should be playing. She told everybody where to sit.<\/p>\n
Other people did the actual work.<\/p>\n
Richard did the shopping. Daniel did the cooking. Richard\u2019s sister did the dishes. Susan stood in the middle of it all with a glass of wine and took the compliments.<\/p>\n
I watched it start to sink in. Around the kitchen. On Richard\u2019s face. On Daniel\u2019s face. Even on Susan\u2019s face, for just a second.<\/p>\n
And then my mother tried to save everybody.<\/p>\n
\u201cI can just make some eggs,\u201d Mom said quickly. She started to stand up. \u201cIt\u2019s really no trouble. I\u2019ll just\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
Firmly. Maybe a little too firmly.<\/p>\n
Mom sat back down.<\/p>\n
Susan gave me a long, hard look. The kind of look that said she was going to remember this. For a long, long time.<\/p>\n
I looked back at her.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t look away.<\/p>\n
Then Susan turned around. She walked to the refrigerator. She opened it.<\/p>\n
\u201cFine,\u201d she said. \u201cWhere are the eggs?\u201d<\/p>\n
By nine o\u2019clock, breakfast had happened.<\/p>\n
Nothing dramatic. Susan didn\u2019t poison anybody. Nobody went hungry. The cabin didn\u2019t burn down.<\/p>\n
She made scrambled eggs and toast.<\/p>\n
The eggs were a little dry. The toast was a little burned on one side.<\/p>\n
She asked where the butter was. Even though she\u2019d watched my mother take it off the exact same shelf in the refrigerator every single weekend for two months.<\/p>\n
She asked where the frying pan was.<\/p>\n
She couldn\u2019t find the spatula. She looked in four different drawers. Then she used a fork.<\/p>\n
Three times, my mom started to get up.<\/p>\n
And three times, I said, \u201cSit down, Mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
She sat down. Every time. But she didn\u2019t like it. She sat there at the kitchen table in her pink robe with her hands clenched in her lap, watching Susan crack eggs like somebody watching a horror movie.<\/p>\n
After breakfast, Susan got up from the table.<\/p>\n
And she left her plate sitting there. Right where she\u2019d eaten. With a crust of toast on it and a smear of egg.<\/p>\n
Out of habit. That\u2019s all it was. Two months of habit. Two years, maybe. Thirty years.<\/p>\n
She started walking toward the deck.<\/p>\n
Daniel looked at her plate.<\/p>\n
Then he looked at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n
Susan stopped in the doorway. She turned around.<\/p>\n
She saw him looking at the plate.<\/p>\n
She walked back to the table. She picked it up. She carried it to the sink.<\/p>\n
She set it down in the sink. Hard. With a clatter.<\/p>\n
And she walked out to the deck.<\/p>\n
I should have felt triumphant.<\/p>\n
I really should have. It worked. She made breakfast. She carried her own plate.<\/p>\n
Instead, I just felt tired.<\/p>\n
Because my mother looked miserable.<\/p>\n
She was sitting at the kitchen table, staring at the pile of dishes in the sink. Her fingers were twitching. She looked like somebody who\u2019d been told she wasn\u2019t allowed to breathe.<\/p>\n
By lunchtime, I realized Susan wasn\u2019t the only person fighting the new system.<\/p>\n
My mom followed me around the kitchen while I made lunch.<\/p>\n
Every step. Right behind me.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ve cut those tomatoes too thick,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThey\u2019ll survive, Mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI could make the dressing. I have a good recipe for\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ve got it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe good salad bowl is in the bottom cabinet. The wooden one. Not that one. That one\u2019s for chips.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd you should put the lettuce in the spinner first, or it\u2019ll get soggy, and\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMom.\u201d<\/p>\n
She stopped.<\/p>\n
She stood there in the middle of her own kitchen. In her fuzzy pink robe. At noon. She hadn\u2019t even gotten dressed. She\u2019d been hovering in the kitchen all morning.<\/p>\n
And she looked at me. And she asked something that I\u2019ve never forgotten.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat am I supposed to do?\u201d<\/p>\n
That question stayed with me.<\/p>\n
Not Can I help? Not What do you need? Not Do you want me to make the dressing?<\/p>\n
What am I supposed to do?<\/p>\n
Like she didn\u2019t know. Like she\u2019d never known. Like she\u2019d spent so many years doing things for other people that she\u2019d forgotten how to exist without a job.<\/p>\n
\u201cGo sit outside,\u201d I said gently. \u201cOn the deck. In the sun.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd do what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhatever you want.\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked genuinely lost.<\/p>\n
Like I\u2019d asked her to speak Chinese. Or fly a helicopter.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know what I want,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen go find out,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
She stood there for another moment. Then she went upstairs. I heard her door close.<\/p>\n
Twenty minutes later, she came back down. Dressed. In her gardening jeans and an old T-shirt. With a book under her arm. A paperback mystery I\u2019d given her for Christmas that she\u2019d never even opened.<\/p>\n
She went out to the deck.<\/p>\n
She sat down in a plastic chair. Not the lounger. A plastic chair in the corner. Next to the grill. Next to her flower boxes.<\/p>\n
She opened the book.<\/p>\n
She read the same page for about forty-five minutes.<\/p>\n
Later that afternoon, around three, I went upstairs to get a sweater. The wind was picking up off the lake.<\/p>\n
The guest room door was closed. I could hear voices through it.<\/p>\n
Susan and Richard.<\/p>\n
I wasn\u2019t trying to listen. I really wasn\u2019t. I was just walking past to get to my room.<\/p>\n
Until I heard Susan say:<\/p>\n
\u201cThis is exactly what I was trying to prevent.\u201d<\/p>\n
I stopped in the hallway.<\/p>\n
Richard said something too quietly for me to hear.<\/p>\n
And then Susan said:<\/p>\n
\u201cShe told me herself, Richard. She said it\u2019s getting harder for her. The cleaning. The shopping. The driving. All of it. And now everybody\u2019s treating her like she can\u2019t manage her own house. Like she\u2019s some little old lady who needs to be rescued.\u201d<\/p>\n
I knocked on the door.<\/p>\n
The talking stopped. Instantly.<\/p>\n
A second later, Susan opened the door. She looked at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan I help you?\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you talking about?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cExcuse me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou said my mother told you it was getting harder. What did she tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan looked at Richard. Then back at me. Her face changed.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe didn\u2019t tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d I said. \u201cShe didn\u2019t tell me anything.\u201d<\/p>\n
My mom was sitting on the deck when I came downstairs. Still in the plastic chair in the corner. Still holding her mystery novel. Still on page twelve.<\/p>\n
I walked right up to her.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom,\u201d I said. \u201cDid you tell Susan that the lake house is getting too hard for you?\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother looked up from her book.<\/p>\n
She sighed. A long one.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, honey,\u201d she said. \u201cIt wasn\u2019t some big secret.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat did you tell her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing important. Just\u2014talking.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan had followed me downstairs. She was standing in the sliding glass door now. With her arms crossed.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou told me,\u201d Susan said to my mother, \u201cthat taking care of this place was wearing you out. Back in June. The first weekend. Remember? We were sitting right here.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI said I get tired more easily than I used to,\u201d Mom said quietly. \u201cThat\u2019s all. I\u2019m sixty-eight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd that the grocery runs were a nuisance,\u201d Susan said. \u201cAnd that opening up the whole house every weekend was a lot of work. And that your back\u2019s been bothering you since you fell off the ladder painting the shutters.\u201d<\/p>\n
I turned to my mother.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou fell off the ladder?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mom looked at her book.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was just a little fall,\u201d she said. \u201cI was fine. I landed in the hydrangeas.\u201d<\/p>\n
I turned around. I looked at Susan.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo your solution,\u201d I said slowly, \u201cwas to do absolutely nothing?\u201d<\/p>\n
Her face went hard.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d she said. \u201cMy solution was not to make her feel like she couldn\u2019t handle her own life.\u201d<\/p>\n
I actually laughed. Out loud. I couldn\u2019t help it.<\/p>\n
\u201cBy leaving coffee cups all over the deck?\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s face went red.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t understand,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen explain it to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
She was quiet for a long moment.<\/p>\n
Then she walked out onto the deck. She didn\u2019t go to her lounger. She pulled out one of the plastic chairs. Across from my mother. And she sat down.<\/p>\n
She looked out at the water.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen my mother got older,\u201d Susan said, \u201cwe all started helping her. With everything. At least, that\u2019s what we called it. Helping.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her voice was different. Softer. Quieter.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe took the grocery bags out of her hands. We told her not to cook anymore. We told her to sit down every time she tried to clean. Every holiday, every birthday, she\u2019d start to do something. Get up to clear the plates. Get up to make the gravy. And somebody would say, Mom, don\u2019t worry about that. Mom, sit down. Mom, relax. We\u2019ve got it.\u201c<\/p>\n
Susan looked down at her hands.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe thought we were being so good to her,\u201d she said. \u201cWe thought we were taking care of her.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nobody said anything. Richard was standing in the doorway now too. And Daniel, behind him.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd one day,\u201d Susan said, \u201cshe told me something. At Thanksgiving. The last one. Before she died. She was sitting in her chair in the living room. By herself. While everybody else was in the kitchen doing everything. And I went in to bring her a cup of coffee.\u201d<\/p>\n
She stopped. She swallowed.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd she looked up at me,\u201d Susan said, \u201cand she said, Susie, you\u2019ve all made me feel so useless.\u201c<\/p>\n
My mother put her book down in her lap.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe said we\u2019d decided she was old,\u201d Susan said quietly. \u201cBefore she was. She said that every single time we told her to sit down, every time we took something out of her hands, what she heard was that nobody needed her anymore. That she didn\u2019t have a job anymore. That she was just\u2014waiting. To die.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s eyes were wet behind her sunglasses.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe died four months later,\u201d she said. \u201cAnd I never got to tell her I was sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at my mother.<\/p>\n
She was watching Susan very carefully. Very quietly. With her hands folded on top of her book.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo when your mother told me this house was getting harder for her,\u201d Susan said, \u201cbut she kept saying, over and over, how much she loved having everybody here\u2014how much she loved cooking for everybody, how the house felt empty without people in it\u2014I thought I understood. I thought, I\u2019m not going to do to Maggie what I did to my mother. I\u2019m not going to take this away from her.\u201c<\/p>\n
\u201cSo you thought making her wait on you hand and foot,\u201d I said, \u201cwas helping her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought,\u201d Susan said, \u201cletting her host the way she wanted to host was helping her. Letting her feel needed.\u201d<\/p>\n
And for one uncomfortable second, I could almost see how she got there.<\/p>\n
Almost.<\/p>\n
A woman who\u2019d hurt her own mother by doing too much. Who\u2019d sworn she\u2019d never do it again. Who swung all the way to the other side.<\/p>\n
Almost.<\/p>\n
Then I remembered the flowers.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd what does any of that,\u201d I said, \u201chave to do with leaving your coffee cup on the table every morning?\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan didn\u2019t answer.<\/p>\n
\u201cOr making her drive forty minutes to town,\u201d I said, \u201cbecause you don\u2019t like the mayonnaise she buys?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nothing.<\/p>\n
\u201cOr telling her where she\u2019s allowed to put her own flowers? In her own house? That her husband bought? That she\u2019s been coming to for thirty years?\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s face changed.<\/p>\n
Across from her, my mother looked down at her lap.<\/p>\n
I kept going. I couldn\u2019t stop now.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe that\u2019s why you let her make breakfast the first weekend,\u201d I said. \u201cMaybe that\u2019s even why you let her make it the second weekend. Because you were trying to let her feel needed. Fine. I believe you.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked right at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut that isn\u2019t why you stopped saying thank you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s mouth opened.<\/p>\n
Then it closed.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t have an answer.<\/p>\n
Richard was staring down at the deck boards. At his own feet. In his fishing hat.<\/p>\n
Daniel was standing behind him in the doorway. Very still.<\/p>\n
Nobody said anything. The wind moved through the pine trees around the cabin. A boat went by out on the lake, far away. A loon called somewhere.<\/p>\n
It was a long, long silence.<\/p>\n
And then my mother spoke.<\/p>\n
\u201cI do like it,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
I turned toward her.<\/p>\n
She folded her hands on top of her mystery novel. She looked out at the water.<\/p>\n
\u201cI like cooking for everybody,\u201d Mom said. \u201cI really do. I like having all the bedrooms full. I like hearing people moving around down here in the morning. I like the sound of it. The dishes. The voices. Somebody laughing on the deck.\u201d<\/p>\n
She was quiet for a moment.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen your father died,\u201d she said to me, \u201cthis house was so quiet. For so long. Two whole summers, I couldn\u2019t come up here. Because it was so quiet. And now it\u2019s not quiet anymore. And I love that. I really do love that.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan looked relieved. Too quickly. Her shoulders came down.<\/p>\n
But my mother wasn\u2019t finished.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I suppose,\u201d Mom said slowly, \u201cI got carried away.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWith what, Mom?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n
She looked at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cTrying to make them want to come back,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t understand at first.<\/p>\n
I just stood there on the deck. Looking at her.<\/p>\n
And then I did.<\/p>\n
All at once. Like a wave coming in off the lake.<\/p>\n
My mother gave a small, embarrassed little laugh. She looked down at her hands.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou got married, honey,\u201d she said. \u201cAnd suddenly there was this whole other family. Susan and Richard. Daniel\u2019s aunts and uncles and cousins. All these people I didn\u2019t know. And I just\u2014\u201d She stopped. \u201cI wanted things to be easy. For you. I wanted them to like being here. I wanted them to like me. I wanted you to never have to worry that your mother and your husband\u2019s mother couldn\u2019t get along.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe sheets,\u201d I said quietly.<\/p>\n
Mom smiled. Just a little. A tired, sheepish smile.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe sheets,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe four-hundred-thread-count sheets. And the new towels. And the little soap basket in the bathroom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI wanted everybody to be comfortable.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe special mayonnaise,\u201d I said. \u201cEleven dollars a jar.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSusan likes it,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe peach cobbler. Every Saturday night. Because Richard said once, back in June, that he liked peach cobbler.\u201d<\/p>\n
Across the deck, Richard looked up. Surprised.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou make that for me?\u201d he said. \u201cEvery week?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou said you liked it,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
Richard looked stricken.<\/p>\n
\u201cI did say that,\u201d he said slowly. \u201cI remember saying that. I don\u2019t even\u2014I don\u2019t even really like peach cobbler that much. I was just being polite.\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother stared at him.<\/p>\n
And then, for some reason, she started to laugh.<\/p>\n
\u201cEvery time we came back,\u201d I said. \u201cEvery Friday night. When our cars pulled in.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mom looked at me. She stopped laughing.<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought I was doing something right,\u201d she said quietly.<\/p>\n
The whole summer rearranged itself in my head. Like furniture being moved around in a room.<\/p>\n
My mother hadn\u2019t been serving Susan just because she couldn\u2019t say no. Just because she was soft. Just because she wanted to keep the peace.<\/p>\n
She\u2019d been auditioning.<\/p>\n
For eight weeks. Every weekend. Every pancake, every pot roast, every eleven-dollar jar of mayonnaise, every coffee cup picked up off the side table.<\/p>\n
She\u2019d been auditioning for a place in my new family.<\/p>\n
She\u2019d been trying to earn it.<\/p>\n
Susan was looking at my mother. Her face had gone pale.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaggie,\u201d she said. \u201cI thought\u2014I honestly thought you liked doing all of this. That it made you happy. You always looked so happy.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mom nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI do like it,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
Susan blinked. Confused.<\/p>\n
And then my mother said the thing that I think about all the time now. The thing I\u2019ve written down and stuck on my own refrigerator at home.<\/p>\n
\u201cI like taking care of people, Susan,\u201d Mom said quietly. \u201cI don\u2019t like being taken for granted. Those aren\u2019t the same thing.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nobody had anything to say after that.<\/p>\n
Susan sat very still in her plastic chair. Looking at my mother. Looking at the corner of the deck. At the six blue flower boxes full of red geraniums, sitting next to the trash cans.<\/p>\n
Richard took off his fishing hat. He held it in both hands.<\/p>\n
Daniel came out onto the deck. He sat down on the steps. He didn\u2019t say anything either.<\/p>\n
We all just sat there. The five of us. On my mother\u2019s deck. Looking at the lake.<\/p>\n
For a long time.<\/p>\n
At five o\u2019clock, Susan came into the kitchen.<\/p>\n
She stood in front of the dry-erase board. She read it again.<\/p>\n
Her name was beside dinner. Saturday: Susan.<\/p>\n
For a second, I thought we were about to start the whole fight all over again. I braced myself. I was standing at the sink, washing lettuce.<\/p>\n
Susan stared at the board.<\/p>\n
Then she turned around and looked at my mother. Who was sitting at the kitchen table. With her mystery novel. On page thirty-one now. She\u2019d made some progress.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaggie,\u201d Susan said. \u201cWhat were you planning to make? For tonight?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mom started to stand up.<\/p>\n
I gave her a look.<\/p>\n
She sat back down.<\/p>\n
\u201cChicken,\u201d Mom said. \u201cWith roasted potatoes. And green beans. The chicken\u2019s in the refrigerator. I marinated it last night.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan sighed. A long sigh. Like somebody about to climb a mountain.<\/p>\n
\u201cFine,\u201d she said. \u201cWhere do you keep the potatoes?\u201d<\/p>\n
Dinner wasn\u2019t great.<\/p>\n
It wasn\u2019t awful either.<\/p>\n
Susan overcooked the chicken. It was a little dry. Like the eggs. She forgot to put salt on the green beans. The potatoes were a little crunchy in the middle.<\/p>\n
She asked about every single cabinet in the kitchen. Where\u2019s the baking sheet? Where\u2019s the olive oil? Where\u2019s the pepper? Is this the oven mitt or a pot holder? What\u2019s the difference?<\/p>\n
But halfway through cooking, something changed.<\/p>\n
She stopped asking my mother.<\/p>\n
She started looking for things herself. Opening drawers. Opening cabinets. Finding things.<\/p>\n
At one point, she found the spatula. The one she couldn\u2019t find that morning. It was hanging on a hook on the side of the refrigerator. Right where it\u2019s always been.<\/p>\n
She held it up. She looked at it.<\/p>\n
\u201cHuh,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
We all sat down to eat.<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s dry chicken. Susan\u2019s crunchy potatoes. Susan\u2019s unsalted green beans.<\/p>\n
Everybody ate everything.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis is good, Mom,\u201d Daniel said.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, it isn\u2019t,\u201d Susan said.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s fine,\u201d Richard said.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s edible,\u201d Susan said.<\/p>\n
My mother took a bite of chicken. She chewed very slowly. Very carefully.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s very good, Susan,\u201d she said. \u201cThank you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan looked at her. For a long moment.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re welcome, Maggie,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
After dinner, my mom automatically reached for the plates.<\/p>\n
Out of habit. Thirty years of habit. Her hands just went out on their own.<\/p>\n
But Susan picked them up first.<\/p>\n
\u201cLeave those,\u201d Susan said. \u201cI\u2019ll get them.\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother smiled.<\/p>\n
And then her expression changed.<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t you tell me to sit down either, Susan,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
Susan froze. With a stack of plates in her hands.<\/p>\n
And for the first time all day, I almost laughed.<\/p>\n
Susan caught herself.<\/p>\n
\u201cRight,\u201d she said. \u201cRight. I\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
She stood there holding the plates against her chest.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaggie,\u201d she said carefully. \u201cWould you like to help? With the dishes?\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother thought about it.<\/p>\n
She really thought about it. I watched her think.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay,\u201d Susan said.<\/p>\n
And she carried the dishes into the kitchen by herself.<\/p>\n
That night, I found my mother on the deck. Alone. After everybody else had gone to bed.<\/p>\n
She was sitting in the plastic chair in the corner. By her flower boxes. Looking at the lake. The moon was out. The water was silver.<\/p>\n
I sat down next to her.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry, Mom,\u201d I said. \u201cFor what I said this morning. About being everybody\u2019s maid. That was mean.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was a little mean,\u201d she agreed.<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t mean it like that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know you didn\u2019t.\u201d She was quiet for a moment. \u201cBut it was also a little true.\u201d<\/p>\n
We sat there. The loon called again. Somewhere far out on the water.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father would have hated this summer,\u201d Mom said suddenly.<\/p>\n
I looked at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe would have hated watching me do all that,\u201d she said. \u201cEvery weekend. He used to say I\u2019d give away my own shoes if somebody said they liked them. He used to take things out of my hands. Not to do them for me. Just to make me stop. He\u2019d take the dish towel and hide it.\u201d<\/p>\n
She laughed. A little.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe hid a lot of dish towels,\u201d she said. \u201cI found one in the tackle box once. Three years after he died.\u201d<\/p>\n
I took her hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cI miss him,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know, Mom. I do too.\u201d<\/p>\n
The next morning, I came downstairs at seven.<\/p>\n
Mom was already up. Sitting at the kitchen table. In her robe. With a cup of coffee she\u2019d made just for herself. Reading her mystery novel. She was on page eighty-four.<\/p>\n
The kitchen was quiet.<\/p>\n
And in the sink, there was a coffee cup. Rinsed out. Upside down.<\/p>\n
Susan\u2019s coffee cup. The white one with the gold rim that she always uses.<\/p>\n
She\u2019d already been down. She\u2019d made her own coffee. And she\u2019d brought her cup in from the deck and rinsed it out and put it in the sink.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t say anything about it.<\/p>\n
Neither did my mother.<\/p>\n
We just looked at each other. And she smiled. And went back to her book.<\/p>\n
Richard went to town for groceries that morning. By himself. He came back with a whole bag full of stuff. Including the regular mayonnaise.<\/p>\n
\u201cSusan said it\u2019s fine,\u201d he said, putting it in the refrigerator. \u201cShe said she was being silly. About the avocado stuff.\u201d<\/p>\n
He held up another jar. A glass one.<\/p>\n
\u201cI also got her one of these,\u201d he said sheepishly. \u201cJust in case.\u201d<\/p>\n
Before they left on Sunday afternoon, Susan went looking for my mother.<\/p>\n
She found her on the deck. In the plastic chair in the corner. Still next to the flower boxes.<\/p>\n
I stayed in the kitchen. Close enough to hear through the open sliding door. I didn\u2019t pretend I wasn\u2019t listening.<\/p>\n
Susan stood there for a moment. She looked at the geraniums. The six blue boxes. The bright red flowers. Sitting in the corner by the trash cans.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaggie,\u201d Susan said. \u201cI\u2019m sorry. About those. The flowers.\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother didn\u2019t say anything.<\/p>\n
\u201cI shouldn\u2019t have told you to move them,\u201d Susan said. \u201cIt\u2019s your house. It was a terrible thing to say. I don\u2019t even know why I said it.\u201d<\/p>\n
My mother looked up at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d Mom said quietly. \u201cYou shouldn\u2019t have.\u201d<\/p>\n
And Susan accepted that.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t make any excuses. She didn\u2019t say I was tired or I didn\u2019t mean it like that or I was just joking. She didn\u2019t give a big speech. She didn\u2019t explain.<\/p>\n
She just stood there. And she took it.<\/p>\n
Then she looked at the flowers again. For a long moment.<\/p>\n
\u201cThey are pretty,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
My mother smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
Daniel was loading our bags into the car out front.<\/p>\n
Susan walked back through the kitchen on her way out. With her purse over her shoulder and her sunglasses on her head.<\/p>\n
She stopped at the kitchen table.<\/p>\n
She looked at the dry-erase board.<\/p>\n
I\u2019d already wiped it clean that morning. For next weekend. It was blank again. White and empty.<\/p>\n
Susan picked up the black marker from the little ledge at the bottom.<\/p>\n
For a second, I thought she was going to write something mean. Or erase the whole thing. Or make some kind of joke.<\/p>\n
Instead, she uncapped the marker.<\/p>\n
And at the top of the blank board, in neat, careful handwriting, she wrote:<\/p>\n
Susan \u2014 Saturday breakfast.<\/p>\n
She capped the marker. She put it back on the ledge.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t say anything. She didn\u2019t look at me.<\/p>\n
She just walked out the front door.<\/p>\n
On her way to the car, she walked past the deck.<\/p>\n
Past the big lounger with the striped cushion. The one in the middle of the deck. With the best view of the water. The one she\u2019d been lying in all summer.<\/p>\n
She paused next to it.<\/p>\n
She looked at the lounger.<\/p>\n
Then she looked at the corner of the deck. At the six blue boxes of red geraniums.<\/p>\n
Then she did something I\u2019ll never forget.<\/p>\n
She walked over to the corner. She picked up one of the flower boxes. With both hands. It was heavy. Full of wet dirt.<\/p>\n
She carried it across the deck. And she set it back on the railing. Right in front of the lounger. Right where my mother had put it.<\/p>\n
Then she went back and got another one.<\/p>\n
And another one.<\/p>\n
She moved all six of them. By herself. Back to the railing. Every single one.<\/p>\n
She was out of breath when she was done. Her white linen cover-up had dirt on it.<\/p>\n
My mother was standing in the sliding glass door. Watching. With her hand over her mouth.<\/p>\n
Susan brushed off her hands.<\/p>\n
Then she looked at the lounger. At the view of the lake. At the six boxes of red geraniums blocking part of it.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t say a word.<\/p>\n
She just picked up a plastic chair from the corner. And she moved it to the other end of the deck. Where you could see the whole lake. Past the flowers.<\/p>\n
And she sat down in it. For just a minute. To look at the water.<\/p>\n
Then she got up and walked to the car.<\/p>\n
My mom noticed.<\/p>\n
So did I.<\/p>\n
I set my alarm for five o\u2019clock that Sunday morning because I thought I needed to teach my mother-in-law a lesson. That nobody was there to serve her. That my mother wasn\u2019t the hired help.<\/p>\n
And I did. I think she learned it.<\/p>\n
But that wasn\u2019t the only thing that changed that weekend.<\/p>\n
My mom stopped treating every visit like a test she had to pass.<\/p>\n
The next weekend, she made breakfast on Sunday. Because she wanted to. Not because anybody expected it. Susan made breakfast on Saturday, like she wrote on the board. Scrambled eggs. Less dry this time. She\u2019d watched a video, she told us.<\/p>\n
The weekend after that, Mom and Susan made dinner together. Mom taught Susan how to make her pot roast. They stood side by side at the stove in the orange-countertop kitchen, arguing about how much garlic to use.<\/p>\n
\u201cMore,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s already a lot.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMore, Susan.\u201d<\/p>\n
Susan put in more.<\/p>\n
It was the best pot roast I\u2019d ever had.<\/p>\n
Susan started carrying her own plate. Every meal. Without anybody looking at her. She started asking before she expected something. Maggie, would it be okay if I took the kayak out? Maggie, do you mind if I use the last of the coffee?<\/p>\n
She started doing just enough work to understand how much had always been happening around her. How much my mother had been carrying. All summer. Every weekend.<\/p>\n
On the last weekend in August, when we closed up the cabin for the season, Susan got down on her hands and knees and scrubbed the bathroom floor.<\/p>\n
Nobody asked her to.<\/p>\n
She just did it.<\/p>\n
When she was done, she stood up, and her knees cracked, and she said, \u201cGood Lord. You do this every single week, Maggie?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEvery single week,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
Susan looked at her for a long moment.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re a saint,\u201d she said. \u201cOr crazy. One of the two.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably both,\u201d Mom said.<\/p>\n
They both laughed.<\/p>\n
And I learned something too.<\/p>\n
I learned that defending my mother didn\u2019t mean I had to fight every single battle for her. It didn\u2019t mean yelling at Susan. It didn\u2019t mean making a scene. It didn\u2019t mean ruining thirty Christmases.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I just had to get up at five o\u2019clock in the morning with a dry-erase marker.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I just had to make enough room for her to finally say no.<\/p>\n
And then step back.<\/p>\n
And let her say it.<\/p>\n
We went up to the lake again last weekend. The first weekend of the new summer.<\/p>\n
My mother had already planted her geraniums. Six blue boxes. Bright red flowers.<\/p>\n
The dry-erase board was on the kitchen table when we got there. Propped against the fruit bowl.<\/p>\n
At the top, in my mother\u2019s handwriting, it said WEEKEND JOBS.<\/p>\n
Underneath, there were five names. Everybody had a job. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, groceries, cleanup. Rotating.<\/p>\n
At the bottom, next to her own name, my mother had written:<\/p>\n
Maggie: Sunday breakfast. And enjoy my house.<\/p>\n
She\u2019d underlined my. Twice.<\/p>\n
The geraniums stayed exactly where she planted them.<\/p>\n
All summer.<\/p>\n
And every morning, when Susan came out on the deck with her coffee, she walked right past the big lounger with the striped cushion. And she sat in the plastic chair at the end of the deck. Where you can see the whole lake.<\/p>\n
Past the flowers.<\/p>\n
Past the party.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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